Friday, March 9, 2012

Why Can't I Buy a Pathfinder Book?

Permit me a quick recap of my current gaming endeavors.
  • I'm GMing a "4th Core" Pathfinder Game with a modified version of Crucible of the Gods from the save vs death guys.
  • I'm taking back over a PF game from my student GM who was beginning to struggle. It's another low level standard PF game.
  • I'm trying to build interest in a Supers game--no real luck so far, and no idea of what system I would use anyway.
  • I'm tinkering away on "my own game" written as a S&W variant. Very slow progress there--and it may end up just being a S&W campaign.
  • I'm trying to decide what system I should covert my personal adventures to in order to start offering them for download. That was a project I started last year that stalled when I couldn't decide what OGL system to publish them under. 
So, that's about it, but for all my normal game/fiction reading and writing that I do on a regular basis. But the point here is the only real gaming I seem to be able to do lately is Pathfinder stuff. I mean its alright and everything. And the campaign is finally coming together a bit as my young players have started to learn how to play better. We may actually make 5th level by the end of this school year.

Anywho I'm about ready to make some game purchases, and I really thought I should buy my own copy of the PF core rules. We have a club copy, and a miscellaneous library of about 8 other PF books--but these are club books and are frequently borrowed by other club members. I figured it was about time to buy mine.

But, see ... I can't seem to do so ... I mean I put it in my shopping cart and everything, but I just can't feel "good" about it. It just isn't "my" game--isn't a game I would choose to play, let alone read and ponder over. I thought maybe it was because I had access to the Core rules in the club library and maybe I wanted something new. So I thought about getting Distant Worlds or Ultimate Magic or Combat or even Bestiary 3--none of which I have access to. But I just can't do it--I just don't want them bad enough to buy them.

Which is fine you know, I mean I'm certainly not going to buy them if I don't want them. But it has made me somewhat melancholy again. I mean here I am running two campaigns in a game I don't like enough to even buy the rules for. Sheesh! What gives?
You know what I want to buy? I want to buy Crypts & Things by Newt Newport, or maybe finally Lamentations of the Flame Princess and Carcosa by James Raggi. Although since I'm a daddy of three wee ones I don't quite fancy having to keep my copy of LotFP locked in my file cabinet, like it's a porn magazine I'm trying to hide. No, but the point is I really want those games; I want to read them; I want to be transported by them; I want to PLAY them!

... ... ... ...

So chances are that's exactly what I'll do. But it still leaves me enjoying those games at home in my reading chair with a cup of Mate', while I have to play PF during the week. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for the games I do play. Some people don't have any chance at all to game. But darn it all it still makes me a little sad.

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